Confused? Disappointed? Or maybe this was inevitable...

I don't know what to say. Part of me is shocked and disappointed in you, saying I thought we were more similar than that and I can't believe you dealt with things by getting drunk.

But there's another part of me that's thinking, well things aren't that easy at the moment, and you are 17 and perhaps it was inevitable you were going to do this sooner or later. Also, perhaps it's not so different to what I do, I cut when things get too much, you got stressed out and had too much to drink...the difference is that I keep what I do secret, you've worried a lot of people tonight.

You have left me with a huge dilema though, I know I shouldn't have read your texts, but what I saw really worried me, and I think with reason, so do I fess up to the 'rents? Do I just have a go at you (both involve admitting that I read your messages...) or do I just ignore it, and try and be a better sister and keep a closer eye on you.

There are two things that I really have to do right now though: sleep and revise...neither of which are going to be easy!